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Nung isang araw napanaginipan ko si MPQ, ang president ng company na dati kong pinagtatrabahuhan na nagkataon, half brother ng mommy ko so technically uncle ko sya.  Never ko siyabg nakilala until nung pumasok na ko sa company na yun, at bihira rin kaming mag-usap nung nagtatrabaho pa ako dun.  Pareho siguro kaming naghihintay na kausapin bago makipag-usap.  I guess ang pinakamahaba na naming pag-uusap ay nung nalaman niyang magreresign na ako after 3 years.

Anyway, yung panaginip ko, nagsimula sya na may isang malakihang marathon at nasa assembly ako.  Nakita ko syang naglalakad (nag-oobserba?) na may hawak na baston--sa totoong buhay, nakakapag-lakad siya ng maayos at hindi kailangan ng baston.  Sa panaginip ko, habang naglalakad siya nung malapit na siya sa kinatatayuan ko, nadulas siya at nalaglag.  Tinulungan ko raw siya tumayo nung makita ko at pagtapos nun nagpasalamat siyang naka-smile at hinalikan niya ko sa noo na parang lolo ko siya--in reality siguro may 1 in 1 million chance na gagawin nya to dahil hindi naman kami close at bihira nya lang akong pansinin.

Next scene, naglalakad kaming dalawa at naguusap tungkol sa buhay-buhay.  May nadaanan kaming isang malaking painting at nakwento niyang dati rin siyang nagpipinta bago sya maging corporate person at eventually maging isang presidente ng isang kumpanya.  Hinangaan ko siya kasi narating niya yung full potential ng career niya, at ang sabi niya naman naghirap rin daw sya at nagsimula rin sa mababang posisyon bago niya marating yun.  Tapos tinanong ko sa kanya, ano ba ang sikreto niya sa success? Ang sagot niya sa akin, basta raw ang ibebenta mo o yung gagawan mo ng negosyo, yung ginagamit ng tao araw-araw, yung common at hindi nawawala ang demand.  Tas sa gitna ng mga pag-uusap namin, hinahalikan niya talaga ko sa top ng ulo na parang natutuwa siya sakin.  Ang weirdo, ang labo, pero masaya ang pakiramdam na parang masaya at malalim yung pinag-uusapan namin.  At parang dun ko lang din siguro na-feel na kamag-anak ko siya.

Ewan ko ba kung bat ko siya napanaginipan, pero totoo parin hanggang ngayon yung paghanga ko sa kanya sa dedication nya sa trabaho  at sa tuloy-tuloy na pagbibigay niya ng fresh at mahusay na ideas sa company.

At sa pagkukumpara ko sa sarili ko, naniniwala akong lahat ng ginagawa ko sinusubukan ko talagang ibigay lahat-lahat ng kaya ko to the point na minsan pinapahirapan ko rin yung sarili ko, para lang ma-achieve yung best ko, kahit na madalas ang reality ay marami pang nakakagawa ng better sa best na naibibigay ko nang hindi nahihirapan.

Kung sa totoong buhay ay barely magkamag-anak kami, parang minsan nafi-feel ko rin na that's something we have in common, dedication sa trabaho.  Kahit na siguro yung dedication ko, wala pa sa kalingkingan ng dedication na naibibigay niya sa trabaho niya.

Siguro naiisip ko lang din siya kasi magre-retire na siya at partly nasasayangan ako sa company dahil isa siyang malaking kawalan hindi lang para sa kumpanyang yun kundi sa buong advertising and tv industry.  What will become of the industry post-MPQ?  It will never be the same and I believe na sa future, people will always go back and compare what it was like in MPQ's time.  Pero partly rin, natutuwa ako para sa kanya kasi magkakaroon na siya ng panahon para ma-enjoy yung fruits ng labor niya.  Enjoy his life at lahat ng blessings na dumating sa buhay niya.

Pero anyway, sino nga ba ako para magbigay ng opinion sa buhay niya?  Masaya na rin siguro ako na kahit sa panaginip lang, na-feel ko kung paano maging kamag-anak ng isang katulad niya na hinahangaan ko.

Di ako makapaniwala, sobrang lungkot ko kasi nun, naisipan ko magsulat ng tula. Di naman ako writer talaga pero nagsulat nalang ako. I think it's ok. Marami pa siguro kulang pero I like this, it's my first poem. :)

I SEE YOU BUT I CAN'T FIND YOU

I woke up this morning from a phone call
They said you were gone.
Where are you?
Everybody's been looking for you.

You gave no warning, no sign at all
That you wanted to walk out that door

Where's the girl that I once knew?

I am holding your hand but I cannot touch you.
I know you're listening but you can't hear me.

And as I am staring straight in your eyes,
I see you but I cannot find you.

Thank goodness meron pang LJ. Mejo mahirap mag-post sa Multiply tungkol sa sakit kung halos lahat ng contacts nagpopost about Christmas, parang magmumukhang KJ yung post ko. (KJ, LJ hehe)

Ang sarap ng feeling pag pasko na, and this time nag-prepare talaga ako ng maayos para hindi ako masyadong mag-panic sa pagbili ng Christmas gifts. Gumawa pa ko ng worksheet ng names ng bibigyan ng regalo, gift ideas for each person, how much ang budget, tas automatic nang ica-calculate yung total, ganun ako ka-handa, kinareer ko talaga!  Pero hindi ako handa na magkasakit. Nakabili na ko ng regalo sa 1/3 ng mga tao sa listahan ko last Sunday. Monday ok pa ko pero mejo masakit lalamunan ko and parang nahihilo. Tuesday natuluyan na yung sakit ko. Mataas na lagnat, masakit na ulo, ubo. Halos hindi ako makatayo. Kala ko 1 day lang tapos na, pero halos buong week na kong absent sa trabaho.

Ngayong Saturday plano kong mamili ng mga kulang na gifts pero mukhang 'di posible kasi nanghihina parin ako. Wala na kong lagnat pero may ubo pa and ang dali kong manghina at mahilo pag matagal na nakaupo or nakatayo. Haaay. Di ko ma-feel ang Pasko! :( Bakit nangyayari to? Ang dami ko pang kailangang gawin, dami ko pang kulang na regalo lalo na sa family..ayokong maulit yung last year na pupunta ko sa mall ng Dec. 24 at dun palang mismo mamimili. Nag-eend-up akong maraming nagagastos kasi kinukuha ko nalang kung anong pwede.

Plano ko rin mag-simbang gabi pero di ko rin nagawa kasi nga may sakit ako. Boo.

May Christmas party office namin pero di ko rin napuntahan kagabi, mamaya meron din dapat kaming *special* party nila Mai, Det, Cheng, and Karen pero mukhang di na rin tuloy.

Nagbabalot ako ng mga regalo ngayon pero mga 2-3 palang natatapos ko, pagod na ko kagad and nahihilo. I hate it. I hope I get well soooonnnnn!

*craig list.org is a job posting website. sorry mahaba, di ko ma LJcut sa browser ko e

Every day, there are more and more Craigs List posts seeking “artists” for everything from auto graphics to comic books to corporate logo designs. More people are finding themselves in need of some form of illustrative service.

But what they’re NOT doing, unfortunately, is realizing how rare someone with these particular talents can be.

To those who are “seeking artists”, let me ask you; How many people do you know, personally, with the talent and skill to perform the services you need? A dozen? Five? One? …none?

More than likely, you don’t know any. Otherwise, you wouldn’t be posting on craigslist to find them.

And this is not really a surprise.

In this country, there are almost twice as many neurosurgeons as there are professional illustrators. There are eleven times as many certified mechanics. There are SEVENTY times as many people in the IT field.

So, given that they are less rare, and therefore less in demand, would it make sense to ask your mechanic to work on your car for free? Would you look him in the eye, with a straight face, and tell him that his compensation would be the ability to have his work shown to others as you drive down the street?

Would you offer a neurosurgeon the “opportunity” to add your name to his resume as payment for removing that pesky tumor? (Maybe you could offer him “a few bucks” for “materials”. What a deal!)

Would you be able to seriously even CONSIDER offering your web hosting service the chance to have people see their work, by viewing your website, as their payment for hosting you?

If you answered “yes” to ANY of the above, you’re obviously insane. If you answered “no”, then kudos to you for living in the real world.

But then tell me… why would you think it is okay to live out the same, delusional, ridiculous fantasy when seeking someone whose abilities are even less in supply than these folks?

Graphic artists, illustrators, painters, etc., are skilled tradesmen. As such, to consider them as, or deal with them as, anything less than professionals fully deserving of your respect is both insulting and a bad reflection on you as a sane, reasonable person. In short, it makes you look like a twit.

A few things you need to know;

1. It is not a “great opportunity” for an artist to have his work seen on your car/’zine/website/bedroom wall, etc. It IS a “great opportunity” for YOU to have their work there.

2. It is not clever to seek a “student” or “beginner” in an attempt to get work for free. It’s ignorant and insulting. They may be “students”, but that does not mean they don’t deserve to be paid for their hard work. You were a “student” once, too. Would you have taken that job at McDonalds with no pay, because you were learning essential job skills for the real world? Yes, your proposition it JUST as stupid.

3. The chance to have their name on something that is going to be seen by other people, whether it’s one or one million, is NOT a valid enticement. Neither is the right to add that work to their “portfolio”. They get to do those things ANYWAY, after being paid as they should. It’s not compensation. It’s their right, and it’s a given.

4. Stop thinking that you’re giving them some great chance to work. Once they skip over your silly ad, as they should, the next ad is usually for someone who lives in the real world, and as such, will pay them. There are far more jobs needing these skills than there are people who possess these skills.

5. Students DO need “experience”. But they do NOT need to get it by giving their work away. In fact, this does not even offer them the experience they need. Anyone who will not/can not pay them is obviously the type of person or business they should be ashamed to have on their resume anyway. Do you think professional contractors list the “experience” they got while nailing down a loose step at their grandmother’s house when they were seventeen?

If you your company or gig was worth listing as desired experience, it would be able to pay for the services it received. The only experience they will get doing free work for you is a lesson learned in what kinds of scrubs they should not lower themselves to deal with.

6. (This one is FOR the artists out there, please pay attention.) Some will ask you to “submit work for consideration”. They may even be posing as some sort of “contest”. These are almost always scams. They will take the work submitted by many artists seeking to win the “contest”, or be “chosen” for the gig, and find what they like most. They will then usually have someone who works for them, or someone who works incredibly cheap because they have no originality or talent of their own, reproduce that same work, or even just make slight modifications to it, and claim it as their own. You will NOT be paid, you will NOT win the contest. The only people who win, here, are the underhanded folks who run these ads. This is speculative, or “spec”, work. It’s risky at best, and a complete scam at worst. I urge you to avoid it, completely. For more information on this subject, please visit www.no-spec.com.

So to artists/designers/illustrators looking for work, do everyone a favor, ESPECIALLY yourselves, and avoid people who do not intend to pay you. Whether they are “spec” gigs, or just some guy who wants a free mural on his living room walls. They need you. You do NOT need them.

And for those who are looking for someone to do work for free… please wake up and join the real world. The only thing you’re accomplishing is to insult those with the skills you need. Get a clue.

saw an ashley wood book, naganahan ako magdrowing hehe

wood nga!